Friday, December 18, 2009

Our "Official" Song

Dear Danny,

This is it - our song. I know this is not technically our anniversary, but since our computer is broke, I am covertly doing this at work. It's work hard enough here for both of us. This song is perfect for us. We both love Keith Urban, not only for his music, but for what he has gone through. His song "Thank You" describes our relationship to a tee. I am so proud of you. In our three years together, you have conquered your demons and overcame something that many people never are able to master. I am so lucky to have you and Hailey and I are both so greatful for the man that you have become. No part of it has been easy, but you have completely changed your life. I love you.

Thank You by Keith Urban:

There were nights where I was sure
I wouldn't see the morning sun
And there were days that seemed so dark
I couldn't wait for night to come
I couldn't stand to think about how
My life used to be
And how without a single warning
It all slipped away from me
Like a fool I thought I could fight
The shadows on my own
To the dark I was no stranger
But this was stronger than I'd known
And by the time I knew that I was too deep I'd gone too far
And the light that used to guide me
Had faded from my heart
And I found myself in places I thought I'd never go
Surrounded by stangers I was so far away from home
And I don't know how you found me
All I know is I owe everything to you.
Yes I do

And I thank you for my heart
I thank you for my life
And I thank god for grace and mercy
And that you became my wife
I'm seeing for the first time
The stars, the sun and moon
But they've got nothing on the power
Of this love I have for you
And I thank you, thank you

Now people say they'll never stand beside you
They swear they never leave
But when the rain started falling
You know it only fell on me
It was hard to keep believin' in myself
When all I felt was so much pain and guilt and shame
I couldn't even as for help
I don't know if I believe in other lives
But when you came
There was something so familar
About the way you said my name
And the whole world started turning
And I swear that I'd been born again brand new
And it's all because of you

And I've seen so many things
That I just can't explain
But the miracle of miracles is how
With your love I was saved

And I thank you for my heart
I thank you for my life
I thank god for grace and mercy
And that you became my wife
The day I started breathing
Was the day you took my hand
And 'til the day I die
Baby I'll forever be your man
And I thank you, I thank you

Love you - can't wait to dance tonight.

Somebody Loved

Dear Mr. Shaver,

Man do I miss watching Dirty, Sexy, Money with you. We loved that show. It was during one of the episodes that we first discovered The Weepies. After hearing Somebody Loved, we listened to it over and over again. What a great song for us. I've said it before and I will say it again, you've made me a better person and you definitely bring out the best in me. Thank you for turning me into Somebody Loved.

Rain turns the sand into mud
Wind turns the trees into bone
Stars turning high up above
You turn me into somebody loved

Nights when the heat had gone out
We danced together alone
Cold turned our breath into clouds
We never said what we were dreaming of
But you turned me into somebody loved

Someday when we're old and worn
Like two softened shoes
I will wonder on how I was born
The night I first ran away from you

Now my feet turn the corner back home
Sun turns the evening to rose
Stars turning high up above
You turn me into,
you turn me into
You turn me into somebody loved
Somebody loved,
Ooo, somebody loved

Mrs. Shaver

Thursday, December 17, 2009

These Times They are a Changin'

Dear Hubs,

Some may ask how a Bob Dylan song could possibly be "our song." However, those who question that do not know 1) the love that I have for Bob Dylan, and 2) that you once tried to teach me to waltz to "These Times They are a Changin'. Your parents are ballroom dancers and your father owns a ballroom dance studio. You would think teaching me to waltz would be an easy task. Alas, not only do I have terrible rhythm, but I refused to let you change the cd for more suitable music. This was also the night that we decided should we be blessed with another daughter, her name will be Dylan Leigh. Here's to 2010 and hopefully the addition of a "pickle."

Come gather round people wherever you roam
And admit that the waters around you have grown
And accept it that soon you'll be drenched to the bone
If your time to you is worth saving
Then you'd better start swimming or you'll sink like a stone
For the times, they are a changing

Come writers and critics who prophesize with your pens
And keep your eyes open, the chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon, the wheel's still in spin
And there's no telling who that it's naming
Oh the loser will be later to win
For the times, they are a changing

Come senators, congressmen, please head the call
Don't stand in the doorway, don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt will be her that has stalled
The battle outside raging will soon shake your windows
And rattle your hall
For the times, they are a changing

Come mothers and fathers all over this land
And don't criticize what you can't understand
Your sons and your daughter are beyond your command
Your old role is rapidly aging
Please get out of the new one if you can't lend a hand
For the times they are a changing

The line, it is drawn, the curse, it is cast
The slow one will later be fast
And the present now will soon be the past
The order is rapidly fading
The first one now will later be last
For the times, they are a changing

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Your Song

Dear Hubby,

From the get-go, we have both loved this song. This is one of those that whenever it plays, you always grab my hand and it's one of the few where you will sing to me. We bonded right away over our love for Elton John. Do you remember the night that we danced in the kitchen of our apartment to this? Hailey was in your arms, and Jimi was on the counter batting at Hailey's hair. We all got the giggles and we didn't make it through the whole song. But here we go....

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mindI hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

Life has gotten infinitely better since you entered my world.
Love you.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Our Song

Dear Hubby,

In 5 days we will have been married for a whole year. It hasn't necessarily been the easiest year of our lives, but there is only one thing I would change. We didn't have the big wedding, but I don't regret that at all. I am sad that we never got to have a "first dance." We have so many songs that we consider our song. For the next 5 days, I'm going to have a countdown to our song. This will also include dancing at home in our living room, so be prepared.

Song # 5: Keith Urban - Got it Right

She believes in me like I've been tryin' to do
I'm seein' things I've never seen before
Ever since you came into my life I've been a better man

Run, Run, Run, I was running scared
Always lookin' for a place to leave
And I couldn't seem to find where I belonged
Until she took my hand

We can make this work out
Baby, I know it's true
I can't picture myself, with no one but you
And I think I got it right, this time

Oh Yeah

All of my life I've been lookin' for someone
Who believes in love the way I do
And I know I've make my share of big mistakes
But Girl I promise you


True belivers always find each other
And here we are
Always knew that you were out there just waitin' on me
For me to find my way
Find my way to your heart
Oh Yeah


After all the crazy days
I made it through
I can't picture myself with no one but you
And I think I got it right, this time
Oh Yeah

Love you handsome.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


It's hard being a bonus mom. Most of the time I put on my game face and I don't let anyone know that I'm struggling. Being the mom on a day to day basis, but not ever hearing a little voice calling you "Mommy" is tough. Something happened tonight though that made tears come to my eyes.

Danny and I went to parent/teacher conferences at Hailey's school tonight. We were a little nervous, but everything went great. She is doing well with her reading and we need to work on her math skills a bit more. At the end of the conference though, we went in the hallway and looked at the pictures on the wall. Each of the kids drew a picture of themselves and answered a bunch of questions. One of the questions was, "Name your family members." I looked all over for my name the list and couldn't find "Jess" anywhere. Hailey's said, "Daddy, Grandma, Papa, Isabella - her sister, Brett - her mommy's fiance, Mom, and Mom. That's right, Hailey called me Mom. My eyes welled with tears and I felt like a million bucks! This should tide my insecurities over for quite awhile. I love that little girl!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Visits from Dad and a New Shaver

As many of you know, last weekend my Dad came to visit so he could go see the Cowboys/Chiefs game with us. We had an awesome time having him visit! I know he was quite impressed with the big dogs. I've got to tell you, there isn't much cuter than watching your dad play Guess Who with your daughter. He used to play that game with Jenna and me all of the time. Here are a few pictures from the game.

And here are your Kansas City Chiefs!

One of Dad's favorite players, Miles Austin. He had an awesome game!

More Chiefs entrance pics.

The football crazies.

I love this picture of us!

Seriously, how hot is Tony Romo? And isn't my camera amazing?!

Also, I'd like to issue a welcome to the newest member of the Shaver family: Daisy Shaver. She's a doll and we are crazy about her. Right now, she's all curled up in my lap taking a nap. Dr. G saw her today and says she is completely healthy. I can't wait for everyone to see her!